The same thing happens in a flashback on page 57. The narration at the top of the panel tells us that "naive stoicism in the pace of peril was second nature to me," while we see her father pointing and looking very angry while yelling at her that if she were a boy, he'd kill her. Again, this is very disorienting and I was left feeling like it did not make sense, which I think is the point. The tension between the words at the top of the panel, and the words in the dialogue bubbles, along with the illustrations is a very effective presentation of Laurie's discombobulation. How can she make sense of something that makes no sense? Sandell does an excellent job of putting her audience in that hopeless situation.
The scene on pages 80 -- 81 are also very emotionally intense, and although there is little narration there, Sandell sticks with her understated style. Her father basically threatens to commit suicide, and she confronts him in a very strong manner. He avoids engaging with the issue at hand, claiming that he has to "feed the meter.) She has finally confronted him, and what the narrator tells us is that she felt a bitter emptiness. Tat is simple and understated, but the final three panels on page 81 hammer everything home. We see Laurie's back and her father's face in all three panels, first very close and large, then a little further away, and finally he looks small. Her image stays the same size in each panel. She has confronted him and she is growing away from him. The man who has been the center of her life, larger than life, is suddenly rendered small and distant, and we see that change take place in three small panels. Her relationship with her father has changed again and this time she does not tell us, but she shows us in a way that is undeniable. I find it fascinating that the narration can hint at something while the illustrations show the full truth behind the understatements; it's a strong illustration of the rule "show, don't tell." Sandell often tells little, but she shows a lot.
Nice, Rhonda,
ReplyDeleteAppreciate the references as well. The narrative tone is an issue and it does change throughout the memoir. It seems to counteract the inherent drama in the story and in the art. thanks for looking at the panels specifically.
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I really appreciate how you were able to unpack so much of the graphics--to read them. I admit that I got really hung up on the text and didn't do much analysis of what the pictures were saying but accepted that they were simply illustrating the words. As I mention in my post, I need to learn how to read graphic memoir. You certainly have a handle on the genre.
ReplyDeleteAlso, your post reminds me that I wondered why Sandell didn't investigate the possibility that her father has serious mental health issues that could be treated. His behavior in my family would have definitely led straight to a psychologist or psychiatrist.
Darin
I totally agree with you here about how much the narrator leaves unsaid- namely, that her father is a sociopath and is capable of causing physical harm to loved ones. Laurie is so caught up in trying to uncover the truth, that it seems her biggest issue with how her father has directly affected her life involves how he might have affected her credit score. The emphasis in the writing is on the emotional damage, but by looking closely at the pictures on the page, we as readers are clued into what's really going on and how terrifying it must have been. Has the narrator pieced together the disconnect present between what's going on in the pictures and what transpires in the narrative? Maybe she has, and she's okay with it?
ReplyDeletei love your wording of her understating the impact of these incidents on her life via text, but how their emotional implications are displayed through the illustrations (hey, that rhymed!). perhaps laurie feels more comfortable expressing these most tender and intense memories through drawing, which allows the nuances to flow freely. she's had quite a handle on it since she was a child, it seems, which is AWESOME.
ReplyDeleteyou also caused me to realize that snapshots or snapquotes of her life like, "naive stoicism in the pace of peril was second nature to me," isn't just a tendency that's frozen in time for her; it's a part of her personality. hence, this nature bleeds into how she communicates stories of her life, too...and her understated text demonstrates just that.
and yeah, wasn't it interesting how her dad physically got smaller in that frame where they had an argument? that resonated even deeper for me because of the picture she drew of him as a child, where he took up the ENTIRE page, and was larger than every other member of her family in every other picture. but, where he physically shrunk in her life, he became larger than life to her as a myth. hmmmm...